As we brushed our teeth together in our spacious bathroom of our new house, my partner mumbled through her mouthful of toothpaste, “This already feels like home.”
This moment sent my mind into a frenzy of joy, love, and hope. It has been what feels like an eternity since I felt like I had a home. She has felt like home for a while now, but I’ve yet to have a house that felt that way. In that moment of domestic normalcy, I felt like I finally did. Looking at her simple, amazing beauty in that moment as she spoke with toothpaste in the corners of her perfect mouth, it struck me that with her, and in this house, I felt at home. I felt at peace. The last few years have been filled with upheaval, followed by uncertainty and struggle. I haven’t had many moments of clarity or rest and these last few days I’ve felt hope and gratitude for a new chance that I have now with the woman I love and 4 awesome kids who desperately need the stability that this will ensure. We have fought hard together, grown leaps and bounds together, cried together, laughed together and now we hope together. Never under estimate the power of hope in someone’s life. There is a relief in my heart that I grow weak in the knees over. In a step that is often the cause of stress and second guessing, we have found peace and hope and that, my wonderful readers, is what dreams are made of. I know that as our lives are joined there will be struggles and hard times, but if the stress and uncertainties of the last month have taught me anything, it’s that we are equipped to face them together and head on, only to come out stronger on the other side. This is an adventure I am completely excited for. My heart is full.