I have a problem. I have a problem with self deprecating humour. It’s my way of cutting myself down to size when I finally begin to feel confident in a situation. Sometimes I feel it’s a strategy I use to stay “humble”. It doesn’t matter how I justify it, it still comes down to the fact that it is hurtful and dishonest. I haven’t worked this hard to get to a point where I can honestly say that I love myself to tear it down with a few hurtful words that I try to pass off as harmless. I make these jokes about being ugly, or being unintelligent and I laugh hard about them, but with every repetition I believe them more and more. That is what we call a huge step backwards in my recovery process. It tears down the good work I’ve down and it belittles me in front of others. I don’t even understand my motivation behind this problem of mine. So what can I do about it? I need to use what I’ve learned and catch these thoughts before I have a chance to form a joke from them. I need to challenge these insecurities and show myself kindness. I need to build myself up instead. Positivity is a better path than negativity, so try hard to stay on the positive track! Stay strong and keep the PMA!