This has been one of my most difficult years of my life. This Christmas has not been much easier. I’m hoping for a better year in 2015, but I’m not sure what that will entail. Sure, my marriage fell apart this year and I didn’t see my kids at Christmas, but things could be worse. I think that is what is scaring me the most: that it could be worse. I know I am focusing on the wrong thing here. I know that very well. I’ve had a rough couple of weeks and that is not helping things. Things could be worse. I do get my kids every day this week and though it’s going to be expensive, it will be good to see them more than usual. I can focus on that, but I still focus on the negative aspects. I focus on all that has gone wrong and is going wrong and it is beating me down. Is this my circumstances fault? No. I need to roll up my sleeves and work on changing that focus. I can control how I react to these things. I can’t control the circumstances. Now where I exert my energy is key. Where will you exert your energy; on fighting reality or controlling your reactions? Choose wisely.