I relied too heavily on her for everything including my sense of self. I’m realizing now that everything from finances to doctors to my own happiness were piled onto her. It’s a wonder she didn’t leave earlier. I am now responsible for my own finances, food, doctors, and happiness. I should have been before. I know, I know, I just shoulded all over myself, but the truth is I am responsible for me with or without a partner. My happiness is not anyone else’s responsibility but my own. I need to beat this into my head. It’s important for me to realize if I’m to move forward. This is the end of an old life and the beginning of a new, hopefully better, life. I’ll ask again, Who am I?
A human being
A guitar player
A lot of things.
I have a little bit of a difficulty at work as well. My ex is in construction and I’m in selling construction material and I end up dealing with my ex’s work. It is harder to deal with than I thought even if I don’t deal with her directly. I hope this all gets easier, I really do. Is there a way to skip this part?