I can’t control the situation. I can’t control what others do. I can’t control the weather. There is a lot that is out of my control and I need to stop trying to control them. I can control how I react to a situation and I need to practice this more often. There I go with the all or nothing “need” word. I would like to practice this more often. I might fall short sometimes, but I can just try again. Life keeps happening regardless of the plight and I want to take it as it comes at me. I accept that my heart is broken; I don’t like it, but I realize that is where I’m at right now. I have been analyzing every encounter with her to try to guess where I stand and it is giving me nothing but misery. I hope, but I want to be realistic too. I’ve been punishing myself for this everyday and have been trying to show the changes that are being made, but again, I can’t control this.