Dear Children of Mine,
I write this letter to all three of you in hopes I can be forgiven. I trust that you are reading this when you are much older than now and you have moved on and have your families. I hope that when you read this that you have learned to forgive me for my behaviour over the years. I would not blame you if you had left me behind and forgotten I still exist. If that is the case, please hear what I say next. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for the yelling, I’m sorry for the times I just couldn’t get out of bed or off the couch. I’m sorry for being so distant and for crying with no reason. I’m sorry for my paranoia and my fear of leaving the house. I apologize for the days where I obsessed over the “mess”. I have not been the best dad to you and I wish I could do better. There were many good times when I could get a smile on my face and dance and play and sing. Do you remember those days? I pray to God that you do. I want you to know that I tried hard everyday. I fought a silent battle in my head and it took me away for days on end. I want you to know that I love you even if my many moods confused and scared you. I never meant to hurt you. I love more than you’ll ever know. I’ll always be your Daddy.